Hi guys.
I've been trying to write a journal a few days now, but every time I get to do it... I'm not really aware of what to write, or someone begins to talk to me and I forget all about the journal I've been writing and by the time I realize it... I feel it's just really bad and think that I'll do it some other time. Now I guess that "other time" has come.

I've been kind of busy lately - I myself feel just like I don't have any kind of spare time for myself - I've got all that damn homework or exams to study, then I've even got to work at the 4H-garden. I've also got other things to tink about when it comes to school. Like where I'll be at my next APU or the project I've begun on.
By the times I've GOT a little sparetime, I use this moments for relaxing and talking to people whom I love - my friends and my boyfriend. Wouldn't survive without you guys, you know? ^^

So... lately I've got less and less time for drawing and stuff. And I'm not really into photographing in darkness, which it is before and after school - always. I can't even tell last time I drew something seriously. I've just done doodles this past weeks, and I haven't really been into that either. Sad, I guess. But then I've no inspiration right now either. Why would I then even want to do something seriously?

I've got a really stressed situation right now - I somehow gotta get a grip of it. So I guess I won't be very active here on dev in a while then. Might be looking around every day, but I probably won't submit anything in a while. Or at least not much. hope you'll have a better time than I've at the moment though ^__^
*hugs*

Hi people! I'm kind of bored right now, and I've got about 25 more minutes of break, that's why I'm writing this now. ^^
Hope you don't really mind! XD

I've not really more to tell you than I had last time, nothing has really happened! ;O
So what should I write about then?
Well.. I dunno... My pics?
hmm... I've told ya 'bout that last time, haven't been drawing anything after that.
My comic, Feather...? Hmm... Haven't told ya anything about that in a while, have I? XD
Now I gotta remember, what was the last two pages I submitted... 7-8 on the 2nd chap? Yeah... gotta be so...
Well... I'm not really sure right now, but I at lest think I've done a few more pages. I've got the comic at home, and I haven't been drawing a lot on it for this time I've been gone. I made some pages before I left, but I'm not sure how many, if they're finished and if I'm already submitted those... Think I haven't though... This'll get to be homework! XD If I have done any, I promise I'll submit them as fast as possible! XD
But, other than that, I've started to draw Jidai's different faces and moods, which will be lots of help later on This guy's hard, though... Imagine yourself to get different faces when you have someone who always seems to be relaxed, happy and such things! XD I have to draw small differences! XD
I'll do this on all my other characters too, and I can tell right now that the Suzuki-siblings will be so much easier than Jidai! XD Yuri and Chiaki! XD Okay... Hiro'll be a little challange too, since he's another very neutral person... The question is just if he'll even HAVE any different faces? He's meant to be very hard to read, you see! XD
Perhaps the most tiniest things if I decide to make differences! XD This means, he'll be harder than Jidai! XD
Hm... I found a little to talk about anyway! :'O How could I find something like that? O_O Now, just about 10 minutes to go... What else have I to tell you? Anything?
Well... Not exactly. I miss having Verran around, although she lives about 100 swedish miles away. Miss to talk to her... ;o Hey... promise you'll tell me a lot of stuff as you come home!! XD
hmm... maybe I should add a title? *adds one* So, much better, MUUUCH BEEETTER!! >8D It tells a lot about me right not! XD
Hmm... I've nothing left to write, so even if it's 10 min 'til my lesson start... I guess this is it for this time! XD

*hugs* ^____^

Hi guys! :'D
I'm back from my 4 weeks of practical training. I can just tell you that I've longed for coming home and I missed everybody at home - and of course those two who doesn't live near me.

So, this practical training sucked. The place sucked. The first time I felt hopeless and stupid and not fitted for the job at all was after just a few days, 2 or 3 more exactly. For each day it got worse and worse. I and the other trainees even wrote a minus-list about this place. Examples of stuff that I wrote in this list is stuff like that we got abuse instead of getting told how to do stuff, they explained things badly and expected us to get what they meant right away, bad safety, bad introduction of the place, we got way to little food - although we'd been promised to get food... oh... The list is long, honestly. I'm just happy I got the highest grade on it (for some stupid reason, yes, we get grades on practical training)! This damn people were also able to get my selfconfidence to sink a few levels. It sunk so much that I began to think that maybe I should drop off school and get me another future not including horses. Drop one of my biggest interests. Now afterwars, after my mom told me that "if you let your slefconfidence sink, you'll show them they've won", I've got this feeling that NO - this damn place can tell me whatever - I'll continue my own road! I won't let them crush my dream, as they succeded to crush one of the other's!
Now that I've come home, I've found my brother being here until tomorrow evening sometime. Damn, it's been so long since I saw him last! ;O If I told you it were but fun to see him, I'd be lying! XD
Hm... my friend's been going to - was it Florence? - today, so I won't be able to talk to her in a week... Hey... we gotta speak as fast as you get home! GET IT?! XD Guess you've got PLENTY to tell! XD Or at least I HOPE you do! XD

Hm... You want to know anything about any new pics? Well... I've done 1.5 pics or so as I've been gone. One... Well, you won't see it! XD Dislike it a little now XD
The other... I'm not sure you'll ever see that either... XD
And then I've got lots and lots of photos... Well... those MIGHT you be able to se ;O Sometime, but... not know... XD This is what I've got to tell you this time... So I hope you've had a so much better month than I have

*hugs*

It's been a while since I wrote last, hasn't it? :'O

To be honest with you... I'm not really in a good mood. This journal might get a little... hmm... how to say it...? BORING!
But as I said before, I haven't written for a long time, and I have to do sometime. Also, I need to tell you that I'll soon get offline for four weeks straight. I won't have any possibility to get any computer and/or get on the internet. And even if I COULD get that chance... I'm not sure I'd take it! XD
This because I'll live next door to the stable I'll be working at during this four weeks (the week-ends included).
One part of me thinks this'll be really awsome, and that I'll get to do lots of stuff and being close to horses for a real long while! The other part... is afraid, and mostly that I won't last, that I'll collaps, since I use to get really tired after I've been working alot ;o
So, we'll see how it'll turn out, and of course, hope for the very best ;D

Now, I've nothing more really important to say, and I don't have any news about my art, since I haven't been drawing something really for a couple of days (everything I've done's been more or less just sketches, nothing interesting, in other words!)

so, this is it for this time. ^^
*hugs*

Yes I know I've got nothing to write about, but so what? But, hey, right now, I just don't really care of that matter. I've nothing to do, and I last wrote in the beginning of the month!

So... I've right now, at last, come to my last day at my dad's place. Unfortunatly the whole story ended up me being almost both these weeks at his place, instead of spending one week at my friend's place. :/
This morning I woke up after, lets call it a nightmare, and I woke up earlier than I had expected - 6.45! I had my alarm set on 10.00, since I've all summer gone to sleep late and not gone out of bed before 12.00, often 12.30 or even 13.30! Since I'm going today I decided I needed some sleep at least, but I was going to get up early (or, usually it's pretty late for me!).
So then I ended up having a look around at dA, watching pics and... Yeah, I ended up looking around in my own gallery. I found pics I wasn't really interested in, but I let them be. I also found that pic of Järvsöfaks - [link] - and decided that when I arrive at home, I should try harder to draw realistic horses (traditional, of course!), which I deeply hope I'll also do! :'O I've been drawing so much manga in a while, and I've even drawn my unrealistic horses for some time. So, I'll have to draw a lot more horses. Oh... I should draw a lot more overall... I mean.. I love to draw, but still... it feels like I don't get any progress... And when my friend told me I draw in a very swedish way, I got like: WTF!!?! I GOTTA GET BETTER - AND IF POSSIBLE: A NEW STYLE! I DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW FROM WHAT COUNTRY I AM JUST BY LOOKING AT MY PICS!
So, I might try to find a new style of art. This isn't the very only reason to this. I've been thinking a long time that my style isn't what I want it to be. It's like... too simple... I think... ;O
Oh, I've done a lot more pages on the manga. I've done about half the second chapter, so perhaps I should think of getting those pages scanned so I can submit them soon enough? If anybody's interested?
Yet, I've also been thinking about this. Feather, I mean. I've at last redone the whole thing about 3-4 times, so I began to think... Instead of doing the sketches... maybe I should draw the real thing right now? And then... perhaps there would be more interest in Feather than it is with just the sketchpages?
I'm still not really sure about this. So you'll have to be patient and wait to see what will happen.

Hah, for not having anything to say - I got plenty written down, didn't I? XD
just hope you didn't get bored ^^ (or... if you did, would you read 'til the last word? XD)

Now, I hope you'll have a splendid day! ^^ *Hugs*